well here is sort of a serious blog for ya....
when u close your eyes and see a picture of yourself , what or who do you see?
do you see the you from happier, slimmer, more youthful days?
or do you see the you that the world sees?
when i think of my self- i see the girl from 10 years ago. no grey hairs, no spare snow tire around my middle, no huge ghetto booty you could sit a 12 pack on, no double chin turkey neck, and no fat ankles that wont fit in my cute sexy boots anymore.
i'm not completely oblivious. i know i have done this to myself. i know how to fix the outside and make a attempt to get back to the way i was before. i have made a few lame attempts to try but it never fails and i find myself back in my old habits of eating un-healthy and being sedatary.
i truely admire those folks who have the dedication and drive to keep themselves healthy. or the folks who made the decision to change thier lives to a healthy one and are staying true to it.
where does that drive and dedication come from? i mean, i KNOW i am not prolonging my life in anyway by stay on this very unhealthy path i am on. i have had several family members die from living that same way. my father had a heart attack at 63, im sure alot of it had to do with his being over weight. my mother is also over weight and has diabeties plus other ailments, alot of them doue to her unhealthy life style.you would think that would be enough of a wake up call, but nope... here i am still eating crap.
i even rememeber when i was in 2nd grade a kid teasin me about my mom being " a fatty" and running to the bathroom crying. my mom came in to console me and told me "its not what others think about her that matters. what matters is that i loved her and that she loved me." i do NOT blame how i am on my parents. they were and are some of the best parents a kid could ever have! i am truely fortunate in this part of my life.
whats even sadder is that i have a lifetime membership ,that my mom and i got together, for Jenny Craig! but do we go anymore? nope! i try to use the excuse that thier food got too expensive, but i could probably wing it now adays... hmm but would it matter if i cant even stay dedicated on my own for over a month at a time.
i love salads, but i have a bad habit of bathing them in dressing, even the suppossedly sugar free, fat free, calorie free crap that still isnt good for ya. i dont mind some veggies, but im sure the can stuff i do eat very very rarely are not good for ya. hmmmm fruit, will i do eat the occasional apple or banana, but probably not enough to make a impact on much of anything.
i have even filled out the application for "the biggest loser" but never made a video to go with it to send in. im not sure if what i need is a personal trainer in my face yelling at me to push harder. i even had a cute lil gimmik type phrase for the video.... hmm i may not share it here though, its copy righted by me! lolol plus i may get around to actually making the video to send in.
so what does a girl do, who craves to be a sexy hottie again for herself and for her woman, but just cant find the drive?
2 comments:
Well you definitely nailed it on the head... it's all about motivation. If you don't have it, then you'll never succeed at losing the weight.
Now the question is how do you get it... Doing it alone is tough. My advice is to convince your woman to do it with you... Then at least you have someone to push you on the days when you think "oh it won't hurt to miss just one day at the gym..." or "Just one King Cake won't hurt." She can't look over your shoulder (or you over hers) all the time, but it does make it a bit easier.
And of course you're not alone... I've been trying to lose 20-30 lbs for about 5 years...
i think if u had someone to push u to keep at it u could do it
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